Dear Michael,

I don't have to go into too much detail about how much I Love You Mr. Jackson because you and I know how much I truely love you, it can never be written in simple words. I will miss you, but your in a better place and don't have to deal with futhamackas talking ish and telling you if the choices you make are justified or not. I cannot mourn your sudden death because I know you found peace, you impacted and inspired so many lifes all across the world, one of those lifes were mines. Instead, I will celebrate your life because I know you will want me and the rest of your fans to do that. No matter what people said about you, I know you were a beautiful and genuine person inside and out. An one of the greatest the world has ever seen, thank you for inspiring me to dance. I would stand in front of the TV for hours trying to learn Thriller, Remember the Time and Ghost. Or banging Dirty Diana in the car. Lol. I still can't get those moves, but when I get up there make sure you teach me those moves...your spirit will never die because it'll live on in me; I wanna be just like you...

CONVERSATION on 06/21/09:

-Chrysta: Mama, you know who I wanna be like?
-Mama: Who?
-Chrysta: Michael Jackson.!!!
-Mama: Oh really, why?
-Chrysta: You can go anywhere, literally, ANYWHERE in the world and say 'Michael Jackson'. No one will ever be like, 'Who's Michael Jackson?'.
-Mama: Hmm...That's so true, huh.
-Chrysta: I know, its like he impacted and inspired people all across the WORLD, not just America but the world just by doing what he loves to do most, singing and dancing. I wanna be like that with my acting and dancing. He tight...

True Story. All bullsh*t aside.







Rest In Paradise.
Mr. Michael Joseph Jackson <3

I Love You!,
Chrysta Camille West.

If I wrote a note to God, I'd say...

Dear God,

I been thinking ALOT likely about my life and how I hope

for my family can live comfortably. How I would like things to

be is quite simple and what many people want for their families...

to be taken care of. I was thinking, my sister is living in dallas

ALONE working a sucky *** job. my brother has basically put

his life into the palms of the governments hands in order to

provide for his family. my best friend is thinking about NOT going to

school next semester because her student loans are too high.

my parents are working their butts off just to make sure we have

food on our table, clothes on our backs, shoes on our feet and

enough gas to go to our destinations. The way I look at it, none of

them are suppose to be doing this, I am suppose to be providing

for them. I want to be able to provide for them sooo much that they

never have to lift a finger. All they have to do is wake up in the

morning, then I got it from there. We can go out and have an

expensive dinner and never have to ask the price. Be able to take

them out and shop until they literally drop, etc. Im sure everyone

would like to do this for their family. But its like we been struggling

for years and years and years and years. If its not money, its

something else its as if everytime we get 2 steps forward we

get pushed 4 steps back. And I would always say to my

parents, "Mommy, Daddy...God is just taking us through a test."

I strongly and deeply mean that, but my question is this, How

long will this test last, is this a lifetime test, or does it remain only

for a season? God, I know Im never to question you and the things

you do, but I just dont want to see my family suffer no longer. I'll

give anything to make sure that they are happy. Which is why Im

writing this letter to you...You know I have BIG dreams and plan to

achieve them starting right now with your approval. But the main

reason I have these dreams to become a rich, successful, famous

actress is for my family. Yes, its my dream but they inspire it to

a magnitude no one could ever see but you. As I said, I just want

to take care of them, so they never have to work a day in their lifes.

Im asking you to make miraculous miracles work in the West Family,

its so well needed, we live right and have scarficed so much...Regardless

if you change it or not, your will be done, I will continue to live by

your will no matter what the devil might throw at us. I will continue

to keep faith in you, I know the road wont be easy but you brought

me too far to leave me or my family. Im believing you God and I know

you wont let me down because you created me for a purpose. My purpose

is take care of my family and I wont stop till its 6 feet on top of me.

Someone asked me, "What is your main goal in life?"

My answer, "to make sure no one in my family ever have to work again a day in their life"

Love your spiritual daughter,

Chrysta Camille "Texas" West

P.S; I would still actually like to be a rich, famous

and successful actress too God, just dont forget...lol

hallelujah...

i wish i could walk outside my body, stand in front of myself, put my hands on my shoulders, shake and say, "Chrysta, stop overthinking!!! WTF is wrong with you!! STOP!!"

this is your brain on drugs right? well this basically what happens when you overthink, its doing the same damages as drugs can do to your brain. sad right?! LOL. (why am i laughing.)