Discombobulated .

Lately, I've been feeling like something
is missing in my life. Everything is perfect
except for one thing . . . NO BOYFRIEND !
But its okay, because I know he will come,
never can rush gotta keep patience, its a
virtue. But lately, I've been thinking maybe
this guuy is closer then I think. . .

Now I lay me down to sleep,

There is this man in my dreams.

I constantly see his face each day,

nice face

head is straight

Got to be the that guy,

God knows I prayed.

I lay in my bed thinking,

wondering why.

Who in the hell is this fuckin' guy?

I dont know this dude,

Why do I care?

When I dont even know

if he's really here.

Although, Im dismantled

and feel a little discombobulated.

I am happy simply because

eventually we will have a relation. . .

ships that pass across the ocean

cant make my heart grow fonder.

But the absences of his presence

makes me feel ...

Discombobulated.

Notorious B.I.G's VOICE :

Im going , going back , back to Cali Cali . . .





SO, i been in texas for almost 5 days and i thought i would be happy to be home . but sadly to say im not . I came to realize this isnt my home anymoree , its so sad to me because i dont miss it , only thing i miss is my family and friends . but cali is my home . I felt like I sold out texas , but it doesnt fit my personality . texas moves too slow for me , and it doesnt change much . but cali , life is so spontaneous and random . which exactly matches my personaility . plus i really BMOD :(

i love this..

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OMG . . . .

its been so long since i posted a blog .
okaay , im going to get back on tracck LOL .

BMOD Retreat .

SO BMOD Retreat started with everybody meeting at Jackie's Apartment . When I got there it was only me and Carissa there . We ended up leaving and went to the 99cent store and gettin' some ice cream .



Sidenote* I love my sister , Carissa, she is like the freakin best seriously , I dont know how I could of made it through the whole Sheroes experience without her.

But then we come back and ended up finding our car, which was Jackie's Car:

-Jackie
-Chrysta (Me)
-Hannah
-Jenise
-Carissa

EQUALS THE BAMB ASS CAR !



We had to pack everything in the car, OMG the car was so packed . Jenise had eggs sittin on her laps, cuties in the back window and we had to stay in the car for 2 hours . . . on top of that we got lost !!!

Jenise's eggs in lap .

cuties in the window and jackie's hat .

the directions . BUT WE GOT LOST ! and found this . . .

my space in the car

carissa and jenise's space in the car

hannah's space in the car

jackie drving .










FINALLY WE GOT UP TO BIG BEAR , and we all meet at the McDonalds on Big Bear Blvd. We stayed there for almost 3 hours . While board went to set up the cabin and drunk proofed it ....

Gester ate Ice Cream =)






We got to the cabinet and it was so pretty , homey and filled with love . last but noot least LIQUOR . . . so we got drank and unmentionable things happened . we all started crashing about 4am and the next morning Gester "Jae" , Hannah, Carissa and Jackie made breakfast . After eating, some of them went snowboarding while the rest of us stayed in the house . I took a very needed nap. After I woke up, we went outside and played in the snow (Snowball War, Sleighing, Etc.) . We bulit forts and my team was the shit , we was killing the other team . Later, we went inside and watched Gidiron Gang, I knocked out. . . AGAIN ! Then the snowboarder came home. So we began the serious part of the trip. We broke into four groups and was told some of the deepest things we go through to each other. Man, crazy . . . . i never cried soo much . I cant even write anymore because so much stuff happened . LOL . So enjoy these pictures below and sum up what you think we did for the rest of retreat :)

The messy BMOD cabin .

SNOW !!!!!

I gave Nikki a hicky :)

closer view .

my awesome snowball fight teammates .

the greatest snowball blocker/thrower

the opposing team :(

our last parting girft from Big Bear =]