Dear Michael,

I don't have to go into too much detail about how much I Love You Mr. Jackson because you and I know how much I truely love you, it can never be written in simple words. I will miss you, but your in a better place and don't have to deal with futhamackas talking ish and telling you if the choices you make are justified or not. I cannot mourn your sudden death because I know you found peace, you impacted and inspired so many lifes all across the world, one of those lifes were mines. Instead, I will celebrate your life because I know you will want me and the rest of your fans to do that. No matter what people said about you, I know you were a beautiful and genuine person inside and out. An one of the greatest the world has ever seen, thank you for inspiring me to dance. I would stand in front of the TV for hours trying to learn Thriller, Remember the Time and Ghost. Or banging Dirty Diana in the car. Lol. I still can't get those moves, but when I get up there make sure you teach me those moves...your spirit will never die because it'll live on in me; I wanna be just like you...

CONVERSATION on 06/21/09:

-Chrysta: Mama, you know who I wanna be like?
-Mama: Who?
-Chrysta: Michael Jackson.!!!
-Mama: Oh really, why?
-Chrysta: You can go anywhere, literally, ANYWHERE in the world and say 'Michael Jackson'. No one will ever be like, 'Who's Michael Jackson?'.
-Mama: Hmm...That's so true, huh.
-Chrysta: I know, its like he impacted and inspired people all across the WORLD, not just America but the world just by doing what he loves to do most, singing and dancing. I wanna be like that with my acting and dancing. He tight...

True Story. All bullsh*t aside.







Rest In Paradise.
Mr. Michael Joseph Jackson <3

I Love You!,
Chrysta Camille West.

If I wrote a note to God, I'd say...

Dear God,

I been thinking ALOT likely about my life and how I hope

for my family can live comfortably. How I would like things to

be is quite simple and what many people want for their families...

to be taken care of. I was thinking, my sister is living in dallas

ALONE working a sucky *** job. my brother has basically put

his life into the palms of the governments hands in order to

provide for his family. my best friend is thinking about NOT going to

school next semester because her student loans are too high.

my parents are working their butts off just to make sure we have

food on our table, clothes on our backs, shoes on our feet and

enough gas to go to our destinations. The way I look at it, none of

them are suppose to be doing this, I am suppose to be providing

for them. I want to be able to provide for them sooo much that they

never have to lift a finger. All they have to do is wake up in the

morning, then I got it from there. We can go out and have an

expensive dinner and never have to ask the price. Be able to take

them out and shop until they literally drop, etc. Im sure everyone

would like to do this for their family. But its like we been struggling

for years and years and years and years. If its not money, its

something else its as if everytime we get 2 steps forward we

get pushed 4 steps back. And I would always say to my

parents, "Mommy, Daddy...God is just taking us through a test."

I strongly and deeply mean that, but my question is this, How

long will this test last, is this a lifetime test, or does it remain only

for a season? God, I know Im never to question you and the things

you do, but I just dont want to see my family suffer no longer. I'll

give anything to make sure that they are happy. Which is why Im

writing this letter to you...You know I have BIG dreams and plan to

achieve them starting right now with your approval. But the main

reason I have these dreams to become a rich, successful, famous

actress is for my family. Yes, its my dream but they inspire it to

a magnitude no one could ever see but you. As I said, I just want

to take care of them, so they never have to work a day in their lifes.

Im asking you to make miraculous miracles work in the West Family,

its so well needed, we live right and have scarficed so much...Regardless

if you change it or not, your will be done, I will continue to live by

your will no matter what the devil might throw at us. I will continue

to keep faith in you, I know the road wont be easy but you brought

me too far to leave me or my family. Im believing you God and I know

you wont let me down because you created me for a purpose. My purpose

is take care of my family and I wont stop till its 6 feet on top of me.

Someone asked me, "What is your main goal in life?"

My answer, "to make sure no one in my family ever have to work again a day in their life"

Love your spiritual daughter,

Chrysta Camille "Texas" West

P.S; I would still actually like to be a rich, famous

and successful actress too God, just dont forget...lol

hallelujah...

i wish i could walk outside my body, stand in front of myself, put my hands on my shoulders, shake and say, "Chrysta, stop overthinking!!! WTF is wrong with you!! STOP!!"

this is your brain on drugs right? well this basically what happens when you overthink, its doing the same damages as drugs can do to your brain. sad right?! LOL. (why am i laughing.)

Dirty Gritty ft. Selena Fiasco - Had It

i did this video a long time ago. this shoot was so much fun, ahh good times.

(check me out: red and white striped shirt)

HawthoRNe

i think i found me a new show to watch. jada pinkett-smith's star and produced the new TNT series, Hawthorne this is a really good show. props to jada pinkett-smith.

can you honestly choose?

Jun Q Choreography to "Mad by Neyo"

Maseo Choreography to "Mad by Neyo"

such a hard decision -__-

my GODCHILD.

say hello to my godchild...

congratulations to miyonna and larry

i wish i had more followers...

k bye =]

this is how i roll

whats sad is..

i was falling in love with him. gave myself to the wrong guy , on well, sheit happens =]

Amp'd , 3 more days dawg

remember who's the BADDEST..

JANET JACKSON

muthafackas !!

every straight guy in that concert had to hate him.

JAMIE FOXXX is the GREATEST

Graduating Class of OH NINE

august 04' i moved out to california from texas and began my freshmen year of high school. crazy how time flies by now i just COMPLETED my first year of college...this is crazy.

but anyways...

i went to the class of 2009 graduation. it was great because it was so amazing to see all of my friends graduate. they were like little youngsters to me, but now they are adult about to go into the world and experience what i experienced this past year. in a way i feel like i graduated all over again. =]

The Alumni "Colony High School 2009 Graduation"

at our revival high school , Chaffey , how ironic huh?

the supporters: tara , chrysta and tiff

lesalay (leslie)

future NBA star's : Dennis Craig and Miles Holland

i missed her crazy ass, my bestie, chazlyn

shitdy (shadi)

cheer girls forever

future NFL pro Jourdan Bell

dance/cheer girls: congrats bre and aja

keisha (booboo)

danny

KayKay Support "Chino High School 2009 Graduation"

chino's graduation was so legit..

kaykay's supporters.

since 06' bxtches!

mrs. yambao

mr. yambao

choco + nilla + 4 = EVER <3 =]

CONGRATULATIONS CLASS OF 2009

Happy Birthday BIG BROTHER !

today is my big brother, JEFF, birthday. for the first time, i realized that my brother is really in the army. man, it seems like just yesterday he was teaching me how to play super mario bros in his room, showing me all the tricks and secret rooms on that game...man good times! but my big brother is really protecting and serving our country. but most importantly , my big brother is a provider for his family, my nephews and my sister in law, and he is a responsible young man! im proud of him!

found this card that i sent to him. reminded me of the good ol' days:

outside reads: "birthdays my come and go..."

inside reads: "but somethings never get old...IM NOT TOUCHING YOU...IM NOT TOUCHING YOOOOOU!!"

since the semester...

is almost over, um..

i will blog MOREE guaranteed =]

and update you in my life.

damn, sexy moma..

black, creole`, flipino

Never Can Say Goodbye; BMOD Banquet .

Dedicated to Barkada Modern:

Dirty Sneakers 5, 6, 7, 8

Dirty Sneakers are a sign that someone has danced on

his or her fairshare of stages, studios, sidewalks, streets

and asphalt and it says 5, 6, 7, 8

Each move you make leaves a bit of knowledge

on the sole of your sneakers. its knowledge says 5, 6, 7, 8

They enhance each piece of knowledge that sticks to the

bottom of your sneaks, it says 5, 6, 7, 8

Each scuff mark has a story. it reads 5, 6, 7, 8

Every crease sings a song. it sings 5, 6, 7, 8

Each speck of dust has its own tale to relate. 5, 6, 7, 8

Dirty sneakes are a sign of growth and wisdom

fresh sneakers are just that...fresh

Oftent hey remain boxed up and don't get the chance

to experience, dancelife and the different 5, 6, 7, 8's...literally

Fresh sneaks are unexperienced and unused.

uncreased, undanced and abused.

What do you dance in? this is not what sneakers are made for.

Ours are made for 5, 6, 7, 8

I've always dreamed of being that pretty in pink ballerina that

danced when the jewelry box opened. but im proud of the fact

that i can get sweaty and dance with the people i love more

than anything. We've had an amazing year and developed many

dirty sneakers. Can't ask for anything better than to dance

with people i love and people who live by 5, 6, 7, 8

BMod Board 08-09, you guys have done a magnificent with us this year. you guys made my first year extract special with all of the events and socials that you guys planned, all the good decisions you made and all of the love you guys showed us. i just want to say, i respect you guys as our board , and cant say enough how proud i am of you guys for making and choosing a wonderful team.

jacks, your the best director in the world, hands down. thaats my super sheroe. thank you =]

hannah, you are like my strength. we are always there for each other when we have to vent and i appreciate you soo much.

sissy, wow...seriously where would i be without you. you make me smile from my heart. and one of the hardest working dancers i've ever seen.

anthony, you are one of the most unselfish people i have ever meet in my entire life. and you are like my guardian angel.

jowena, i love you soo much. your smart and intelligent. you have one of the most brightest future ahead for you.

NONE PICTURES:

byron, man you are an amazing guy. i appreciate your humor; always make me laugh. you did a wonderful job with this team and i dont think we would be much without you. i love you , even though you wont say it back =]

jenise, wow...dude you are soo freakin funny. i love how you trust in me because i know how it feels to feel lonely sometimes like you cant talk to anyone.

thank you barkada modern giving me faith that there are still geunine and loving people in the world.

erocka, man you are soo wonderful and you are my ROCK eROCKA.!

kristyynnn, jessykahhh, stephhhh and didi

this 08-09 year has been an AMAZING year for me personally, because i meet and fell in love <3 with 30 people, that i can seriously call them, my FAMILY. barkada modern has had a great year, with ups and down. laughs and smiles. sweat and tears. truimphs and fears. but to be honest, i can NEVER say goodbye to this seasons because i know these memories that we shared is engraved in our thoughts, in our sneakers, in our youtube account. lol. i can honestky say i will never EVER forget this year. from our first social at neil's house to our last competition UB09. i've meet wonderful people and teams (CG bby!) through being on this team. man, words cant summarize they way i feel about all of my teammates and cant tell them enough if i tried. but if i had to try to summarize how i feel about them, i'd have to say:

Dear Barkada Modern,

I Love You, I need you to survive...