Monday, December 28

a diamond that is treated like glass, ask for love but me you wont ask

"your apart of me and you dont even know it, im what you need but im too afraid to show it"

Bad Habits - Maxwell

two of my favorite people in a hot fuckin video

IDOL i love you soo much!

i love her

WHAT-A-BITCH

i got TUMBLR and forgot all about you BLOGSPOT..im sorry for being such a bxtch nigga for deserting you like that smdh

Tuesday, August 18

woman, you are beautiful...i am not lesbian or bisexual in anyway...but i have a woman crush on you

jeffery III & jaydin west

I LOVE YOU!

Tuesday, August 4

so gone over you =p

for the first time ever, i think i really felt heartbreak

i stayed up all night as if i had a toothache.

toothache it was not , but more like everything stopped

when i knew it was completely through.

im not the type of girl to cry over a guy or you

even tried to force myself. but its something

i just cant do. why? i dont know…

maybe because im looking forward to a better future

i cant dwell in the past, even though i swore we would have last.

you were really good to me, but just not my better.

Best i mean, i saved every letter.

Because i know i need to cherish those

even every single rose.

I hope your happy and it stays that way.

Even though my heartbreak has finally came.

Always been the type to put my feelings aside

to do what’s best. And what I did I do not regret.

My feelings still remains, but this heartbreak I will

not take. I guess I’ll take it a forgettable mistake.

We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Hmm…because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

Saturday, August 1

WOW , WOW , WOOOOOOOOOW !

&& they might teach bMod workshops, WOOOOOOW!!!

Thursday, July 23

love is something i yearn for almost everyday. not in the sense of a girl walking around looking for someone to be my boyfriend and love me..oh no, not i said the fly. but its just that its something i look forward to and want to embrace. i look forward to doing the most random-iest things with this person who's like my best friend and boyfriend wrapped into one . i look forward to calls like this, "hey babe what you doing?..oh nothing?..well i got movies and popcorn, be over in 30." i hope to embrace the ups and downs in relationships, especially those downs because that what gives strength and nourishment to the grow and bond of the couple. i look forward to playing the ugly face contest with this someone who can actually win against me. i hope to embrace looking like a complete mess (big hair, baggy/stained clothes, etc.) in front of this someone and still look at me as if i just stepped off the runway. waking up with this someone next to me, cuddling..like i said in a previous post im a sucker for romance and yet simplicity..dont know who this someone is, but i embrace it if you dont like it...WELL - - - - OFF!

(via last words: seriously, if you dont like love your a heartless futhamucka)

Perfect Date..

He takes you on the perfect date, out of this world, literally. We’d take a magic carpet ride through the sky, then go roller-skating around the rings of Saturn. We’d sit on on the edge of a crescent moon and pitch stars into the Milky Way. There he would propose to you and offer the sun as an engagement ring. We would make love on a bed of clouds, fall fast asleep, then slowly drift back to Earth. And if this date does not meet its intended destination, please send it to heaven, because it was meant for an angel.

(via pat'n on my own back: that was deep.)

who's your top three?..

top three baddest bxtches walking in the united states of america..

Reasoning:
#1. Angela Bassett - will be 51 on August 16th and looks like she's in her late 20's early 30's. Not only an actress but a Yale University Graduated. Been in the entertainment business and made it successfully without expose herself or her dignity. And she personally, my idol.

#2: Janet Jackson - has been in the spotlight since she was a child has been torned down almost every single magazine, paparazzi, etc. and still on her fuckin grind and killin it..just like her kuya, michael (rip MJ). And last may I add, she's undeniably hot!

#3: Stefani 'Lady Gaga' Germanotta - is simply on this list because she gives no fuck to what any futhamucka thinks of her and its beautiful to see what she has next up her sleeve just so she can piss off the public and paparazzi. ahhh, she bad.

(via: its just my opinions)

a fan of REAL poetry

Rafael Casal - Barbie and Ken 101
("...this is where i really start gettin pissed off okay? when the fuck did it become about, tooking in the gut, i gotta get the bigger breast, should i wanna fit a little better in the dress, so let me get a little skinny, gotta fit into the itty bitty just to live'n up the chest, please...fuck barbie and ken...above hips, ass, lips, legs and uggs the most real ass shit is women who dont give a fuck..so screw all your teachings...")

Kanye West - Bittersweet
("...all of that talking I feed off of, keep it up. I’m relaxing and my feet is up, I’m leaving you haters just like Shaq left the Lakers just to heat it up. I state the static's to stunt, I don’t need to front. Make black history everyday, I don’t need a month..." )

Zora Howard - Bi-Racial Hair ("...im talking about that cross burning in the mud blood and you call me a mud-blood. slit my wrist, my blood does not excrete in black and white. i dream in verse and red like what dripped from Emmett Till's lip from when he was killed for breaking down color lines...because of her lack of roots they called her an oreo, but her skin isnt that dark so more like a cinnamon vanilla wafer or a mulatto, thats more like a reverse mulatto, IM NOT A FUCKING COOKIE OR A BERRY..." )

Wednesday, July 15

Love, Love, Love, Love ^ _^

its one thing dreams are made of and what everyone needs to experience at least once in their lives, It is Love. With some of the heartbreaking events we have all will experience at least once should be openly welcomed. I have to admit one thing that attracted me to our President was the love and admiration he shows for his wife Michelle. With Que and Dawn its the pure innocent love that they are never afraid of showing and embracing. With the Dream and Christina its the love that you want to showboat and don't give a damn about what people think about it. With Jay and Beyonce its that understated love that you never have to talk about but the world knows just how strong it is. It is Love and it is Urban and I welcome it and hope that its something we can all see more of and incorporate into our daily lives. Let's embrace love, welcome love, reciprocate love, learn love and most importantly love LOVE!

Friday, July 10

misunderstood

ok..

you heard the story of 'Hansel and Gretel' right? so everyone always,

i mean always takes those bratty kids side of the story, but think

about i mean really really think about it..was it fair that two little lost

runts just come up to your house and start eating it??? to answer

that question..uh NO. the witch was very misunderstood in that story

because she worked hard for that candyhouse and nobody has the

right to just take or eat your things. (thats wht she said..bMod)

if those lost ass kids were hungry than Hansel should have told his

dumb ass sister not to throw the bread crumbs on the ground, the

trick should have thrown some pebbles or rocks, then they would've

had food duh. anyways, the moral of the story everybody so quick

to judge the witch just because she tried to eat children. but in the

words of weezy, "..just a soul who's intentions are good, oh lord please

dont let them be misunderstood" the witch was misunderstood, in the

end the witch died because of those stupid ass, bad ass kids. little fucks!

(via emotion: these shits are fucked up right now)

Sunday, July 5

Complicated Melody

If he were a color...
He'd be a deep dark forest green
If he were a car...
He'd be a long stretch limousine
With room for all of humanity inside
Cause he is so giving
And he is so wise
If he were a number...
He'd be a five
cause he has such a brilliant mind
If were an animal...
He'd be an jackass
cause he's so stubborn sometimes

But if he were a song...
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
That almost cannot be sung on key
But he means the world to me

If he were a building...
He'd be a beautiful cathedral
Cause he's so traditionally spiritual
If he were a dance...
He'd be complicated like the tango
Exotic like a mango

But if here a song...
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
That almost cannot be sung on key
But he means the world me

He ain't the reason for the
sun and the moon
He is just the reason for
this complicated tune
Cause he means the world to me
Complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
He's a complicated melody
That almost cannot be sung on key...

--don't who i'm talking about, but hey doesn't hurt to write it out

(via india arie)

Monday, June 29

Dear Michael,

I don't have to go into too much detail about how much I Love You Mr. Jackson because you and I know how much I truely love you, it can never be written in simple words. I will miss you, but your in a better place and don't have to deal with futhamackas talking ish and telling you if the choices you make are justified or not. I cannot mourn your sudden death because I know you found peace, you impacted and inspired so many lifes all across the world, one of those lifes were mines. Instead, I will celebrate your life because I know you will want me and the rest of your fans to do that. No matter what people said about you, I know you were a beautiful and genuine person inside and out. An one of the greatest the world has ever seen, thank you for inspiring me to dance. I would stand in front of the TV for hours trying to learn Thriller, Remember the Time and Ghost. Or banging Dirty Diana in the car. Lol. I still can't get those moves, but when I get up there make sure you teach me those moves...your spirit will never die because it'll live on in me; I wanna be just like you...

CONVERSATION on 06/21/09:

-Chrysta: Mama, you know who I wanna be like?
-Mama: Who?
-Chrysta: Michael Jackson.!!!
-Mama: Oh really, why?
-Chrysta: You can go anywhere, literally, ANYWHERE in the world and say 'Michael Jackson'. No one will ever be like, 'Who's Michael Jackson?'.
-Mama: Hmm...That's so true, huh.
-Chrysta: I know, its like he impacted and inspired people all across the WORLD, not just America but the world just by doing what he loves to do most, singing and dancing. I wanna be like that with my acting and dancing. He tight...

True Story. All bullsh*t aside.

Rest In Paradise.
Mr. Michael Joseph Jackson <3

I Love You!,
Chrysta Camille West.

Wednesday, June 24

If I wrote a note to God, I'd say...

Dear God,

I been thinking ALOT likely about my life and how I hope

for my family can live comfortably. How I would like things to

be is quite simple and what many people want for their families...

to be taken care of. I was thinking, my sister is living in dallas

ALONE working a sucky *** job. my brother has basically put

his life into the palms of the governments hands in order to

provide for his family. my best friend is thinking about NOT going to

school next semester because her student loans are too high.

my parents are working their butts off just to make sure we have

food on our table, clothes on our backs, shoes on our feet and

enough gas to go to our destinations. The way I look at it, none of

them are suppose to be doing this, I am suppose to be providing

for them. I want to be able to provide for them sooo much that they

never have to lift a finger. All they have to do is wake up in the

morning, then I got it from there. We can go out and have an

expensive dinner and never have to ask the price. Be able to take

them out and shop until they literally drop, etc. Im sure everyone

would like to do this for their family. But its like we been struggling

for years and years and years and years. If its not money, its

something else its as if everytime we get 2 steps forward we

get pushed 4 steps back. And I would always say to my

parents, "Mommy, Daddy...God is just taking us through a test."

I strongly and deeply mean that, but my question is this, How

long will this test last, is this a lifetime test, or does it remain only

for a season? God, I know Im never to question you and the things

you do, but I just dont want to see my family suffer no longer. I'll

give anything to make sure that they are happy. Which is why Im

writing this letter to you...You know I have BIG dreams and plan to

achieve them starting right now with your approval. But the main

reason I have these dreams to become a rich, successful, famous

actress is for my family. Yes, its my dream but they inspire it to

a magnitude no one could ever see but you. As I said, I just want

to take care of them, so they never have to work a day in their lifes.

Im asking you to make miraculous miracles work in the West Family,

its so well needed, we live right and have scarficed so much...Regardless

if you change it or not, your will be done, I will continue to live by

your will no matter what the devil might throw at us. I will continue

to keep faith in you, I know the road wont be easy but you brought

me too far to leave me or my family. Im believing you God and I know

you wont let me down because you created me for a purpose. My purpose

is take care of my family and I wont stop till its 6 feet on top of me.

Someone asked me, "What is your main goal in life?"

My answer, "to make sure no one in my family ever have to work again a day in their life"

Love your spiritual daughter,

Chrysta Camille "Texas" West

P.S; I would still actually like to be a rich, famous

and successful actress too God, just dont forget...lol

Sunday, June 21

hallelujah...

i wish i could walk outside my body, stand in front of myself, put my hands on my shoulders, shake and say, "Chrysta, stop overthinking!!! WTF is wrong with you!! STOP!!"

this is your brain on drugs right? well this basically what happens when you overthink, its doing the same damages as drugs can do to your brain. sad right?! LOL. (why am i laughing.)

Friday, June 19

Dirty Gritty ft. Selena Fiasco - Had It

i did this video a long time ago. this shoot was so much fun, ahh good times.

(check me out: red and white striped shirt)

Thursday, June 18

HawthoRNe

i think i found me a new show to watch. jada pinkett-smith's star and produced the new TNT series, Hawthorne this is a really good show. props to jada pinkett-smith.

can you honestly choose?

Jun Q Choreography to "Mad by Neyo"

Maseo Choreography to "Mad by Neyo"

such a hard decision -__-

Monday, June 15

my GODCHILD.

say hello to my godchild...

congratulations to miyonna and larry

i wish i had more followers...

k bye =]

this is how i roll

Saturday, June 13

whats sad is..

i was falling in love with him. gave myself to the wrong guy , on well, sheit happens =]

Amp'd , 3 more days dawg

remember who's the BADDEST..

JANET JACKSON

muthafackas !!

every straight guy in that concert had to hate him.

Friday, June 12

JAMIE FOXXX is the GREATEST

Graduating Class of OH NINE

august 04' i moved out to california from texas and began my freshmen year of high school. crazy how time flies by now i just COMPLETED my first year of college...this is crazy.

but anyways...

i went to the class of 2009 graduation. it was great because it was so amazing to see all of my friends graduate. they were like little youngsters to me, but now they are adult about to go into the world and experience what i experienced this past year. in a way i feel like i graduated all over again. =]

The Alumni "Colony High School 2009 Graduation"